Am planning on going to one of the festivals with James, Dave, Mads and co in the summer.
Buutt, which one??
I need some ideas people!
Lineups would be helpful too.

Hooray for summer!

i parked!!!
Convinced dear mother to take me out driving, I started the car! And went forwards! And stopped! In a parking space! Hurrah!!
Watch out all you super driver types - IM ON THE ROAD!! AND I PARK LIKE A PRO!

Yay!

3 WEEKS SINCE I GAVE UP SMOKING!!

This week has been really really tough, but my asthmas been sooo much better its been worth it.

Argh! I cried in front of everyone because i needed a cigarette *fucking desperately* and like, burst into tears. How embarrassing!

2 WEEKS SINCE I GAVE UP SMOKING!

This week has been comparatively easy, as i havnt spent much time around other smokers.

I love him! He's perfect!
Eeeee!

I gave up detoxing after day four. Because i got the shits.

And its been over a week since i last smoked!!!
Im really quite proud of myself.

1 WEEK SINCE I GAVE UP SMOKING!

Argh Im tetchy and moody and snappy and hungry and tired and desperate for a smoke!!!!

Oh my days.
No more fruit please!
For the sake of my sanity??

Heeeeello!
Am on a detox diet for the next five days.
Decided to test it and see whether it really has the miraculous effect its supposed to...

This is day one.
I've peed lots and have a banging headache.
I had fruit for breakfast, cashew nuts during the day, jacket potato with salad (no butter) and then some mushed fruit.
And some pureed fruit.
And 5 and a half pints of water.
Tired. Might be cos I got up early rather than the diet.
Going to do 60 situps and 20 minutes on the aerobic step now.
Hurrah.

Laterz!

:) Much better mood today,
Had a 'big think' and Im there.
Its all good.
Smiles

Hellllllllo.
Rang work today and THEYVE GOT MY REFERENCES!!! But now they say they dont have my CRB. Yes they do. Because they told me so last month. Still, Nicks on the case s I should here about it either tommorrow or monday!
Poor little brother is ill at the moment.
Anywho, laters!
XxXxXxXxXxXxX

I LOVE Coralie!
Just been out with her and laughed so hard my sides still hurt!
There seriously is no one in the world anything like coralemma =D
Happy days!

Hoorah! It's Sunday!
The best day of the whole damn week!
Yay!
Buuuut, pub, so its gonna be hard not to smoke...

AAAH! Emma! 

STOP SMOKING!!!

Smoker
Non Smoker
= )

DAMN IT!!

Argh!
I'm getting fat!!!!!
i feel like a whale.
noooooooooo!

Night in, no pub : )
Nice change : D

ABCDEFGHIJKLMNOPQSTUVWXYZ
Yeah.

Pickle my chopstick you darned knicker mouse!
Aha, you have mastered the art of pineapple tying oui?
Forged bank notes? Standard.

I think there was something wrong with the popcorn.
Ima be sick

Eeeee!
Once again the realm of ingenuity shudders at my momentus success:
I MADE POPCORN - and didnt burn a single fucking kernel!! Ooh yeah! Ooh yeah!
So now Im sittin here eating it, with much joy!

Last night was cool, the film was good/weird/fuckedup and the pub we found afterwards was kimda cute, but Jamies so boring! :)
But I'll spare you all that talk for now.

Was going to go out with Coralie this evening but she's at home buried under a 5ft deep mountain of coursework, so were gonna do something cool on Tuesday instead :)
Which is quite handy tbh cos ive got some stuff i need to do here

Flib flab flob, the monkey likes corn on the cob!

Hey!
Hmm New Year...
Last year was a pile of shite so this year can only really be better =)
Have loooaaads to sort out this month, my crb has cleared for work (finally!!) so I can start, I've enrolled on a long distance college course in A level psychological studies, which is a little bit different to the psych A level i did at Colne, in that it's more relevant to my career.
With the points I have from my A levels at Colne and the points form the complete Psych Studies course, plus another A level Im planning on doing,  I'll have enough to enroll on a long distance degree course (BA Hons in Psychology Studies), which then means I can go and do my Clinical Psychology Doctorate with the NHS.
Means paying 300 quid each for the 2 A level courses, a couple of thousand for the degree and the NHS fund the doctorate because you work as a full time trainee clinical psychologist at the same time. The job I have at the moment should give me the work experience I need to be accepted on the doctorate course, but hopefully I'll get some more in somewhere else too, because competition for the placement is really fierce.
So yeah, this month I need to sort out my 2 a level courses - Psych studies and Law.
Then I need to start looking at finding a flat, as well as a car :)
Really looking forward to being busy again!
Better go now, cya l8a xx

Im eating a pop tart.
Take That are on TV
Prodigy Firestarter is on kerrang (?!)
Girl Power is rife
And Platform shoes are on the shopping channel

I fear I slept through a time warp and woke up in 1996.

Heysies!

I’m at home at the moment. Christmas is all done and, at the risk of sounding like a scrooge, I’m glad! I hate Christmas, I think it lost its magic about 10 years ago when Santas true identity was revealed to me as the fat local postman with the big red face. Never been the same since…

Yeah, moving on… my 18^th was alright, it was lovely and quiet J

Oooh!!! I was just in the middle of talking to 6 or 7 ppl online and I’ve lost signal -_- They were really important conversations too, damn it!

New years eve 2moro, should be alright J Probs end up down the KH (-_-) but hey, at least there’ll be some half decent ppl there.

Considering perhaps going down just after midnight because I don’t really wanna be there when a room packed full of drunkards all decide to jump into the air yelling incoherently and kissing each other like passion-depraved nymphomaniacs. Nice idea but Id rather just have a laugh without an over-excited bloke pressing a sweaty armpit up against me in a bid to fling all his limbs at the ceiling when the clock strikes twelve. Haha, I think I should stop moaning now =P

Was well fucking moody in the pub last night! I’m usually really laid back and pleasant to everyone, but every once in a while I turn into a fucking biatch and lose all interest in socialising. Which is what happened last night, I was sittin there thinking “Fuck me, I’m in a mood. I cant bring myself to give a flying fuck about anything any of you are saying”. So I left. Thought Id stay in tonight as well just in case. Don’t wanna fuck anyone off. Teehee hee … he.

 

Goooood Evening!
Stayed in today, which was pretty cool cos I got to spend some time with my ickle brother =D
Anywho, need to pee so il write in detail some other time!
Love love! <3

Duvet day!
Sittin under the christmas tree wrapped up in a duvet watching episode upon episode of scrubs.
Really bored of not working now. And the nocturnal lifestyle is starting to bug me too, mind you, got a rrrreaaally busy week this week which should be nice.
Cant wait for my CRB and references to come through so i can WORK!! And get out the damn house.
Gonna stay in with Ryan this evening, dont wanna go pub again because its wasting my money, and i keep smoking, and drinking, and stayin out till the early hours. Which is all very nice, until you do it every day. Then it just gets boring. And I hate doing the same thing, i like change :) 
Ooooooh phlump. My cats got tangled up the christmas tree. And Ryans at the door.
Better go I guess
Seeya soon!

I need a cigarette
But Im quitting
Its really hard
I couldnt face goin pub, watchin everyone puffing happily away, so im home. On a friday night.
:(
Dont like it. 
Too hard.
Want cigarette.
Keep eating instead of smoking.
So Im either gonna get fat or die.
Great.
Fuck off fat mood I am in. Yes.

Aha, hello!
I'm feeling very playful today =P
I gots this ickle feeling in the back of my head that todays gonna be an awesome day.
Not even going out today, probs go down kings later this eve, but thats it, but still, somethins a brewin' !!
Moohah!
Verrrrry mischevious am I...
I believes Im going to get oneself into trouble today. And I love it. I wanna be bad...

Had a spur of the moment organising mood thing.

Managed to make my bedroom somewhat habitable, I have no fucking income at all until my CRB check clears!!!! ARGH!

Oooh, I don’t wanna grow up it sucks. Why’d I leave college again?

I have a decent full time job, yet manage to be worse off than before I left college. Curse you Criminal Records Bureau! Curse You!!!!

=0 I’m getting fat too! I don’t eat that much or unhealthily but I’ve drunk so much alcohol that its sticking to my butt as a fat-like substance. I realised I’ve been drinking for the last 8 nights. Oops! Crash diet and a break from the booze methinks.

Besides, I cant afford to drink any more. 

Time to brush the dust off the aerobic step…

How cool is Jessica, the old lady from Murder, She Wrote?? I want to be her when Im old!!
Guess who's watching daytime TV =P
Gettin a bit bored waiting for my CRB check to clear. But then its nice to get up when I like and stay out till the early hours I spose.
Nearly christmas!!
Nearly my 18th!!
Nearly New Years!!
Nearly THE JANUARY SALES!!!!!!!
I <3 winter!!

Im going to go watch more Cbeebies now =D 

*sigh*
Shabby day.
Woke up, argued with parents.
Went upstairs. 
Got bored.
Came down.
Am bored.
Will probably end up down the pub again tonight. Fun. (-_-) 
Better than staying here though i guess.
Sigh.

What I’ve learned this week…
Everybody has a little streak of devilishness in them
Men aren’t as keen on bondage gear as they like to make out. Most, in fact, are terrified at the thought.
No matter how fashionable sparkly eye shadow becomes, I’m never going to make it look good.
Burlesque is undeniably sexy.
Being embarrassed now and again is good for you.
Girl on girl is never going to be a bad thing.
Fake tans on guys? NO!
Channel 4 just gets better.
Sink plugs weren’t designed for pinkie fingers!

Bit of an irritated mood at the moment.
Just wrote an LJ entry and lost connection just as I went to post it and subsequently lost the whole thing. How infuriating.
Am now laying across my bed in an oversized sweater, French knickers and pink fluffy socks. Life in the fast lane eh? Am quite glad that my rooms so small at the moment because it feels all cosy. it’s all pink and red and cluttered and snug!<3
Really looking forward to tomorrow night because I’m going to a hen party with my best mate, C :D. Should be awesome!
Saw J last night, which was nice because he’s sweet, but my god am I fed up the damn pub!! I refuse to go in there again apart from Saturday, and then only because dad’s down.
Anyway, back to J, he told me he likes me, which made me smile, but I don’t know what to do really. I like him, I really do, he seems like a little darling… but to be honest, I don’t know if I want a boyfriend at the moment, in fact, I’m pretty sure I don’t.
I really enjoy being single because of the freedom and the independence. I know it sounds like a cliché that single people say to look less desperate, but I genuinely value my own space and my own time.
Handled it pretty well though, told him I’d like to go out with him a few times so I could get to know him better before I do or say anything. Which seems like the right thing to do. I don’t really want to make any decisions before I know him well enough :S
Mehr. Complications.
Think R has finally got the message (relief!!) as he isn’t really trying anything on anymore. Although it’s a massive relief and I feel a lot better, its also a bit of a niggle because I don’t wanna feel like I’ve upset him.
Maybe I’m just being a sap. Should worry less I guess.
Going to spend the rest of the day and this evening at home. Am gonna lay here with a book, a hot chocolate and paint my nails or something.
Its one of those days.

OK, so I was randomly reading a myspace bulletin about people's turn ons, and it got me thinking about what I find sexy in a man...
Confidence
Intelligence
Soft hair
Cute eyes
Dimples
A sexy voice
Big strong arms
Being dirty without making it sound ott and cringey
Nice shoes...

...And the list goes on, but then I started musing over turn-offs and there are a substantial number, including...
Horrible Feet
Dodgy hygiene
Shorter than me
Flirtin by being an mean arsehole (how do they expect that to work??)
Super-Competitiveness
Bragging
Horrible shoes (!!)
Spitting
Cartoon boxers
Monobrow!
...

...I think I may be too picky...?

Had my interview today
Went OK i think
Will know tommorrow
Have to wear a hair net >_<

Bored.

What do I actually want to do now?
I've quit college
I've got a job interview 2moro
I'm anticipating beginning my Alevels again and getting something decent out of them (hence my departure from the Colne)
I'll go to uni
But... then what?

I'm not in the surreal little safety net of full time education any more.

I'm so glad I've done it this way but it's a lot tougher than I anticipated.

I feel like a little girl playing in her mom's big shoes.